Car Ride from Hell

-Get in the Car.
-Why?
-Just do it.
-Why?
-I need to drive.
-Why?
-Because I do.
-Why?
-Because I think better when I drive, and I need to process all this.
-Why?
-Are you two?
-No.
-Then quit asking why.
-I’m sorry. Where are we going?
-I have no idea yet just get in.
-Okay.
-I don’t understand you a lot of the time.
-Nobody does.
-I’m trying Josh, I really am, but this is…
-This is what?
-This is ridiculous.
-How is this ridiculous?
-There is depression you can deal with, and then there is depression you need to get help for and I think you need to get help.
-I think I have come to the right conclusion.
-It’s the easy way out.
-I know it is that’s why I want to do it.
-I don’t understand how you can want this.
-Where are we going?
-Does it matter?
-I guess not.
-I just wanted to drive.
-And I just want to end all of this pain.
-All of what pain? We all go through shit on a daily basis.
-Yea but not like I do.
-How can you say that.
-Easily, No one goes through the heart ache and pain I have.
-That’s a really conceited statement.
-How is that conceited?
-I don’t believe you.
-What did I do now?
-You don’t see how your conceited when you are making the most selfish decision you could ever make?
-Now I’m conceited and selfish?
-Yes.
-And what would you suggest I do instead?
-Go get help.
-From who?
-A Doctor.
-I’m not doing that.
-Then you’re selfish and conceited. Have you thought of how this will affect your mom?
-Who cares?
-Again, selfish, you know your mom cares.
-She aggravates me.
-She’s your mother that’s part of her job as a parent, get over it.
-I will when I’m dead.
-Why do you say shit like that?
-Why not?
-Here we go again.
-Where are we going?
-In circles obviously, you keep coming back to you want to commit suicide.
-No I mean where are we going?
-Nowhere in particular, I’m just driving.
-Why?
-Because you are driving me nuts and I need to drive.
-Okay then.
-Don’t judge me! Driving is a release for me, you need to find one that works for you, then you wouldn’t be so depressed.
-And what would you suggest?
-Writing, driving, walking, anything to get your mind off your issues.
-I always think about them, there is no way to get them off my mind.
-Just try to enjoy life and stop dwelling on all the negative aspects of it.
-What is there to enjoy? Nothing.
-That’s bullshit.
-How is that bullshit?
-Nothing is worth it. Nothing is enjoyable. There is no reason not to give up.
-Yes there is, there is plenty to live for all around you.
-Like what?
-Like the sun setting behind that mountain and the colors in the sky.
-Are you serious?
-Yes I’m serious. There is beauty all around us. You just have to open your eyes to see it.
-You’re nuts if you think that seeing the sunset is going to hinder my decision.
-Why?
-Because it doesn’t mean anything.
-Really? Some people would beg to differ.
-Well nature has never done anything for me.
-You are such a pessimist.
-Now I’m conceited, selfish, and a pessimist?
-Yup, I don’t know what to say to you anymore.
-Then stop trying.
-Fine! But think about what you will be doing to those you leave behind.
-Like who?
-Like friends, including myself. And your family, such as your mother!
-Whatever.
-I give.
-You should.
-I’ll take you home, sorry for trying to help.